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Life with Sophie: 5 Months In

^^ At the doctor yesterday, she was so so patient! All the tests and everything took a long time & she powered through like a champ. She really was happy, this picture just doesn’t capture that, haha. ^^

I am absolutely terrible at journaling. Throughout my life I’ve resolved approximately 587 times to be a consistent journaler and failed approximately 587 times at doing so. Even when I had a baby I said, okay, for real! Now’s the time! Aaaand it’s still a struggle. I do jot down quick updates every once in awhile and we take a lot (A LOT A LOT A LOT) of pictures & videos, but time is passing SO QUICKLY and I need to preserve these memories of my little baby that is alllways changing and growing!

Sophia is less than a week away from being FIVE months old !!! And she is a dream. I feel like I am saying this constantly and I’m a total broken record but, like, she is perfect. Being her mother is everything I hoped it would be and more. I am completely smitten by her! She is the sweetest, happiest baby. For a long while now she’s been sleeping through the night, about 10-11 hours at a time, and we do NOT take that for granted because we are very aware that is not the norm!! We are currently sleep training her to help her go to sleep on her own in her crib without being held, and if you want to know more about how we’re doing that, feel free to shoot me an email! It is so much easier than I thought it would be (and totally worth it, in my opinion!)

Sophia is completely formula fed. That is not what I wanted or anticipated, and it’s been a really really long and hard and emotional journey. We tried. We tried so hard. I gave breastfeeding everything I had and more and it wasn’t working and it completely broke my heart. Now, I’m mostly at peace with it because I have a really happy, thriving baby, but it’s taken time and is still hard to talk about because there’s just so much judgment around how we feed our babies. WHY?! I don’t know. But I try to be really optimistic and not care what other people think because it’s our journey & my baby & this is what works for us. We’re looking to start solids soon & I’m so excited – is that strange?! I can’t wait to introduce her to the wonderful world of food – I hope that she’ll love it just as much as I do 😉 Whenever we shake Sophie’s bottle in front of her (or even just show it to her) she starts shaking and flapping her arms and gets so excited! It’s so cute. And then as we bring the bottle to her lips she gets so excited that she stuffs her hands in her mouth. Haha. The older she’s getting, though, the harder it is to feed her! She’s always turning her head to look around the room and is just so wiggly!

Like I mentioned previously, Sophia and I took a trip to Chicago to visit my mom last week and she was just so great on both of the flights. Thankfully we sat next to kind, patient, baby-loving people who never said anything mean or rolled their eyes. I don’t know why but I was so scared I would sit next to a mean person that didn’t like babies or that someone would say something rude if she started to cry! Haha. And let me tell you – changing a diaper in an airplane bathroom is a bit of a tight squeeze! 😉 We’re getting to be pro travelers, her and I, which is not what I ever would have imagined a few months ago! I used to get so much anxiety about leaving the house in the first couple months after she was born but I feel like I have come so, so far since then. I feel so much more independent and confident in myself and my ability to be a good mother to my baby, at home and elsewhere 🙂 Don’t get me wrong, we have our fair share of hard moments in public that have brought both me and baby to tears but it’s just a learning process. We’re figuring it out day by day and it just gets better and easier with time.

We had a bit of a scare a couple days ago at the pediatrician when her doctor detected a heart murmur. She sent us to a pediatric heart specialist in Dallas to get an echo & EKG and, thankfully, it was what they call an “innocent” murmur. We were so immensely grateful nothing was wrong with our sweet baby. I am so very thankful that she is such a healthy baby. I am reminded daily of how much of a miracle that is.

Sophia can roll over from her tummy to her back, but only when she wants to, and laughs only very occasionally – she’s a hard egg to crack! She is so, so smiley, though, and is always winning over the hearts of strangers everywhere we go. Her hair is coming in strong, still pretty light brown, and her eyes are just as blue and bright as ever. She loves to grab things and put them in her mouth and is sooo curious when we sit down to dinner! She looks at the food and watches as it goes to our mouths and is very curious about it all. She’s just a very curious baby – she is always watching, always alert, always learning. She is one smart cookie!

One thing that really breaks my heart about becoming a mother is realizing how negative a lot of women can be about raising children. It has its hard moments, of course, but is just so overwhelmingly beautiful and joyful and miraculous and I wish we focused on that more. Granted, many women out there have far greater struggles than I do, but still. I hope that I can always shine the most positive light on motherhood – it is the most beautiful, wonderful adventure I have ever embarked on and by far the most fulfilling and rewarding. I love this little girl more than I ever thought possible. She is such a dear, sweet, precious gift.

There is sooo much more I could say about her and her fun little personality but that’s going to be it for now. I will share more regularly, I promise!

xoxo

{If you want more pictures of little Soph, follow me on my personal Insta @luciamadeleinewright 👍🏻}

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5 Comments

  • Reply
    Faith Morman
    September 19, 2017 at 6:35 am

    Hey Lucia!
    It’s been so long!! I’m up in the middle night feeding my own sweet baby girl, and for some reason I thought of you, so I came here! I’ve loved reading your posts about sweet Sophia, and being a momma, I’m glad your family is doing so well! Kisses from ND!

  • Reply
    Liz
    June 8, 2017 at 4:29 pm

    I LOVED reading this! But I am also baby obsessed, so there’s that lol 😉 Sophie is just so darn cute and I’m so happy that everything has been going well these past few months. Can’t wait to keep watching her grow!

    • Reply
      Lucia
      June 8, 2017 at 8:45 pm

      Babies are the BEST! Sophie makes me want to have ten zillion children, haha! Thanks, Liz 🙂

  • Reply
    Sarah Gates
    June 8, 2017 at 9:51 am

    Those baby blues!!!! Such a little angel. Also, you are a ninja for changing a diaper on a plane. I am too nervous to go to those bathrooms ALONE with how small they are! lololol

    • Reply
      Lucia
      June 8, 2017 at 8:45 pm

      Aren’t they the worst?! Haha! Gotta do what ya gotta do 😉

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